I'm pretty much in shock still.

I didn't even know Camille..but I feel for everyone and anyone that knows her.
If that was one of my friends, or even anyone I partially knew. I really don't know what I'd be doing.
It's really crazy. I mean sure, not everyone has heart problems or whatever her situation was at our age. It shows me though that at any second, the person you see everyday, can just disappear and never come back.
This is not the first death I've heard of about someone at my school. But I think this one just put me in complete shock. One minute I'm laying down, trying to sleep in class, then I hear someone ask Ashley whats wrong. And all I see is her bawling, like...well exactly what the situation was.
I asked her, along with everyone around, why she was crying so badly. And she was barely able to even speak. Then we finally understood, and she said her friends heart had stopped. And my mouth flew open. I couldn't believe it, poor Ashley, and her poor friend.
After 5th period, I meet up with Amy as usual, and she just grabs me and starts talking. She told me the girl that Ashley was crying about, was in her class. And that even though in the morning her heart stopped, she was put in some type of coma or something, but they pulled the plug.
And I tried asking Amy who she was, and when she explained, I didn't recognize the name at all. But I was still in awe about how I could have probably seen her before, and never realized. And that this poor girl, was a sophomore, just one grade under me.
Now on myspace, I see a lot of people with their name, status or whatever else showing a sign of respect to Camille. Talking about their good times, and how much of a good person she was.

This devastation has brought me into terms with myself and the people I surround myself with. I don't ever want to take any for granted, I don't know if I do know because I really dislike that already but I hope I don't at all. I wanna appreciate all the people that are in my life, I'm thankful for every one of them.
Every single person that has entered my life, has changed me. One way or another. We take something from someone, and we give something from someone. No matter how much or how long we've known them. Either a new form of happiness or a new type of everyday word you caught in the conversation you just had.
For years, I've been trying to put myself out there in the world and just be as friendly as possible. Many times, I've failed. And I've come off as someone with either no social skills or someone really rude. If I ever did anything like that to you, I'm so sorry. I honestly don't mean it. And I'm even more sorry if I was having a bad day and which case I might have meant to give you some type of rude response or look.
I just think that this has brought me into a whole new mind set about many things.
To anyone that I have ever know or will even have a conversation with, thank you for making a change in whatever you will do. I hope I do something meaningful in your life or in anyone's life someday for the better.
My prayers go out to her family and friends. R.I.P. Camille Rodriguez.